If you were to take flight one day, who would be your companion(s)? Where would you head to? How would you do so? What would you bring along, or leave behind? When would it be?

I have a promise to keep, that’s why I’m still stuck here this Summer. People are telling me to just pack my bags and go, people are ready to pack theirs and hop along, but there are those who urged caution, and others who are oblivious. When my promise expires, I’ll be out of town right away. I won’t turn back.

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Ever wondered if you truly understood this blog? Maybe I was “talking” to you, maybe I wasn’t. Maybe it meant something, maybe it didn’t. Perhaps you could understand if you know of the full picture, but the problem is, you know that it would never be revealed here. Because if it does, then it’s no longer See Me Not. Makes sense? Nevermind if you can’t understand, because maybe I never did too.

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I guess I’m a little overwhelmed recently? I read mentions of my name in the forum and even in some of your blogs, extremely weird but I can’t exactly explain why. Unexpected influx of praises to the President/Comm is catching me off guard; never expected myself to be referred to as the President, even if it’s just at the club’s level. It’s especially nice to know there are so many of you who are supportive of us, it warms my heart to know about this. Each message/email you guys wrote to us is like a hot cuppa drink in the wintery surrounding. Whatever happens, it’s nice to know that we left footprints on your path. It’s really nice to know that ;)

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BTW do you guys understand what’s J.R. Nathan? Do you all know who’s our President? And your (FC) President? And Sr = Senior, Jr = Junior? So now you understand the whole thing about J.R. Nathan? It’s meant to tease you guys for calling me President la.. Haha.

As for why am I the Sleeping Exhibit #1? Imagine waking up to pairs of eyes staring and observing you. Worse when you hear your name repeated for the uncountable times while you are still lying there pretending to be asleep. Goodness we were “exhibits” in a “museum”, not in a “zoo”; if not there would be camera flashes and photographs posted everywhere.

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This is not healthy, absolutely not. I thought at the very least, I had that very last reminder, that very last motivation. Something that always worked in the past, it doesn’t now, not at all, not for a single second did it work this time round. I’m worried, very worried. I don’t want to decide now, or to commit to one now, because if I do, there’s no return. I don’t want this to happen either, but I’m not sure if I could stop it, if I could stop it, really. Where the hell is the reminder that is good enough to convince me now? Please, I need it. Please, I really need it. Please.

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Sometimes.. we really need to know that you.. you guys appreciate us.

Sometimes.. we really need to know that you.. you guys do try to understand us.

Sometimes.. we really need to know that you.. you guys recognises our effort.

Sometimes.. we really need to know that you.. you guys will stand by us.

Sometimes.. we really need to know that you.. you guys are on the same line as us.

Sometimes.. we really need to know that you.. you guys still want us.

No one is indispensible in the world, no one, definitely not us. But can we don’t be made to feel that we are so dispensible? Sometimes I don’t just feel dispensible, I feel redundant, so redundant, absolutely redundant.

That was so unnecessary.

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I didn’t plan to have the so-called “President’s talk”, as what you guys termed it (it still feels so weird weird weird when you all refers me as the President.. hai shi bu xi guan..) Ya.. anyway that was not on my planned agenda.. All along I only wanted to say this line (in the end I didn’t get to say it),

“I hope that in future, no matter who is the Leader of RBKD, the Summer Chalet would be a regular annual affair. I would like to see it as a tradition for RBKD.”

But I guess after yesternight, I’m no longer keen to be the organiser anymore.

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That was my question for truth-or-dare at the chalet. Honestly, I have no answer. Maybe I do, but maybe I don’t.

Your idol is a very nice person, honest. But I guess I just can’t be as friendly to her as to you guys; even though I still think that I’m never a friendly person to begin with..

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Someone made me smile, but it’s not your idol. You know who you are, thank you.

I guess it’s always nice and even comforting to know that there is someone who is supportive of you, someone who recognises and acknowledges your effort, and someone who is actually appreciative of you.

Because my assumptions have proven to be so wrong, I have chosen to assume nothing, and hence I know nothing unless I’m told. I prefer to be told, in words, in sincere words.

Thanks to those who did :D

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Now you all know how many screws drop when Snail has insufficient sleep? Crazy me blogging here like siao.

Anyway, I swear that I was being truthful when I spoke to you guys after you-know-who left. It was an unusual Heart-To-Heart talk, rare too, considering I am See Me Not. It was me and everyone, nothing planned, nothing rehearsed or arranged. I let you in about the secrets I had so carefully guarded for some time, I hope my trust will not be misplaced.

Yes, I trust you.

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Police around the world have different objectives, but they don’t kill each other.

I wanted to post this before the chalet, but I was so busy with the preparatory work that I couldn’t.

I just wish to tell everyone that, our guns should not and must not point at each other.

No matter if you dislike anyone, you know that the guns should not aim inwards and we should cooperate in one way or other. Because just as the police around the world believes in upholding justice, we believe in protecting and doing things that’s for the good for someone you know who. This is why we are willing to be toilet brushes, to clean shit and still be disliked.

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I’m not pissed and I mean it, but I don’t like it either. I don’t like it being a planned agenda. To make things right, we do the right things at the right places. I’m still learning this myself though.

I guess when people who are not interested to know or understand the full picture makes their assumptions, it can get fustrating and disappointing; even if one is only a spokesperson, even if they are the others.

Don’t force me to be wilful and to say “so be it”, because I don’t like myself to be like that.

If I’m pissed, I won’t even bother to explain, I rather ignore.

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I’m not asking for favours, I’m not asking for help, I’m not even asking for protection; but please, don’t attempt to make me accept someone I so wanna reject out of my life forever. I can’t handle someone I can no longer trust, someone I can’t understand, someone I have to be wary of hurting me; if someone joins, I leave. And if I leave, I won’t return.

So please don’t ask again, because my stand remains.

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Unless my definition is wrong, else I would like to reiterate that “Nope, no one scolded me”. I know I know that you all thought I looked like I was a daughter being reprimanded by mummy; am pretty amused by what you guys perceived, but in my mind I was thinking along the line of, “this is getting nowhere, because we don’t have a no mutual understanding”.

And I remain very amused by the “Mummy scolding Daughter” talk, really!

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Dreads. I need to pound the pork. I shall imagine each of your face there on each slice of meat and pound it as like those da-xiao-ren action.. Haha!

Anyway, to those who have tried my pork chops before, oh please, don’t have any expectation. Because the thing with my pork chops is that I never had any recipe! Haha. And to those who have never tried it before, *You shall not remember that it was prepared by me*.

I promise I will remember to call 995 instead of 993 should anyone’s butt get stuck in the toilet bowl :D Haha..

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Hi all, would appreciate if in future when RBKD has any outing/gathering/activity, please leave it to us to invite RE. Yes, I don’t appreciate others inviting on our behalf (committee), worse still if it’s without our knowledge. We may have made arrangements or agreements with Hype and by doing so, you might be subjecting her to a difficult situation especially since her working schedule is seldom fixed.

As for the chalet, I have extended our invitation to both her and minmin, but minmin would only be able to confirm on the day itself. So please, don’t ask me anymore if she would be there. I don’t know and I won’t say either. 

I know that none of you are attending this chalet because you think that RE would be there, if that’s the case, please don’t do things that mislead us into thinking all you want is for RE to be there. Yes it could out of goodwill, but whatever you “discuss”  with RE, you should know that if even you don’t have the basic respect to notify us, why should Hype report to us?

So in future if she fills you in with any information because she see you as part of the club, please direct her to us or at least update/notify us? And please leave all invitations and discussions to us and Hype, we would appreciate that. Thanks.

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Halo people? Say thank you ah. Omg I cant believe I woke up at AM instead of PM, woke up 4hours earlier than usual just to go to the wet market for fresh prawns and squids =.= 

And now my mum’s making me sort the prawns and squids by myself. Zzz.. Club President bu hao dang.. Haha..

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王德远: “你为什么喜欢瑞恩?”
Me: o.o!!! 就喜欢咯..
王德远: 你有什么话要告诉瑞恩？
Me: O.O!!! *dumbfounded*
Someone beside me: “瑞恩 我爱你!”

Maybe I should appoint an official spokesperson for RBKD, so that the mic won’t be automatically in front of me every time. Do I look like I am those who will scream “瑞恩 我爱你!” duh?

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So what am I doing here? My 2 very committed sub-comm members – Shirley and Grace, are now stoning at TPY HDB Hub. They reached there an hour ago. My heart was with them, so I woke up 2hours ago, now they are waiting for me to head down while I’m awaiting my opportunity to head out without explaining myself. I don’t like to explain myself la.

Poor Bee.. Stuck in Msia and poor Xaby.. free labour for the day again at expo..

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