I have always felt indignant whenever my GP tutor (as in teacher) generalises us back in JC days. But now I wonder if my indignation was even justified to begin with.
I wouldn’t say I am a concerned youth, and these days, I pretty much regard myself as apathetic too; yet at the same time, I feel that the label “apathetic” on some other youths might actually be a compliment for them. They are not just unconcerned, they are selfish and self-centered.
Perhaps we all are, but has this situation worsened?
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What exactly is that, have you thought of it?
I think, the way to embrace life is to embrace death. If it’s going to happen anyway, leave it till it happens. Concentrate about living than dying, even if it’s your last breath.
Is there something that you have been wanting to do but simply, did not? Nike says it best over here, “Just Do It”, because as what Adidas said, “Impossible is Nothing”.
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How?
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I think that’s where all misunderstandings and miscommunication begin. Because your “I” isn’t my “I”, well at least that’s what I feel when others tell me that.
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I’m thinking of stopping but the to-do list never did stop. It just adds on and on and it’s like Pringles – “once you pop, you can’t stop”, it’s like a habit. But habits can be changed.
Can’t I just be irresponsible and cold-hearted? Not this second, maybe the next?
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So why should I wait? Even if I know how much more I could offer, even if I know how I could make a difference, even if I know this may not be the best time, I also know that I can’t offer forever, and that there’s no best time. So why not now? I’m as scared of my influence as much as I am disappointed with the lack of passion. It’s dim and cold in here, and I feel bad making people walk this path with me. Now that we finally have a break, why not stop here?
If it has to be done eventually, why wait?
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“Dear RBKD, I’m not going to wish you dreams or eternity, I’m going to bring you there, lead you there.”
I just wrote a birthday note to RBKD that doesn’t seem a bit at all like a birthday note. I was tempted to write the above line but alas, I didn’t, because I’m not willing to, and I don’t dare to commit to such a promise.
I know what I could do and this is why I could type the line in such confidence. But the confidence in my ability to fulfill the promise is different from the confidence in myself to fulfill the promise.
The difference is in commitment and willingness, that I can’t and will never be ready to promise.
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Like how I always ignore you. Hahahahaha.
Sometimes, we just had to let it out. To say something, to ask something. It’s not that we wanna show anyone any attitude or anything, it just that it is unhealthy to keep it within us.
I honestly didn’t expect the active response in the “Don’t say ‘Whatever'” news thread. “Whatever” happens to be one of my pet phrases, yea.. I always annoy lotsa with my “whatever”.
It’s a show of attitude, without a doubt; but is that it? I think I will perhaps watch my tongue, I will only “whatever” to those I can be truthful enough to show my attitude to. Others? If you don’t know how to ignore me, let me do the honor then, ignore you totally. Haha.
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My friend commented that I was being too fussy. I admit I am fussy in nature but over that particular issue, I refused to acknowledge that I am (fussy).
So I gave her this example:
A black dot on a piece of white paper versus a black dot on a piece of black paper. The same black dot is of course, more obvious and hence less tolerated on a piece of white paper than the black one. Right? It’s nothing about fussiness, the most about expectations. Isn’t it?
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Haha. I was telling Shir some stuff today and she mistook that I was quitting, threatening to faint if I quit. Yea I nearly quit quite a few times over this past year, over various reasons, at one point I was 90% decided, still I am here, to terrify you guys.
So what if one day I suddenly declare that I’m quitting?
Would you rejoice or would you be sad? Or would you simply feel nothing because it’s not your concern? Anyone anything to share with me? Comments box has been quiet lately..
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Because if I do, every other day I would be posting “I LOVE my MUM!!!”, “I LOVE my DAD!!!” and “I LOVE my SIS!!!”.. Occassionally I will throw in “I LOVE my Ahma!!!” or “I LOVE my FRIENDS!!!”.
That’s how boring my personal blog posts would be, that’s why my personal blog is gone with the wind.
I love my family, and friends :D
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I never knew it matters so much to be there for me, even if its by chance. When all the scary drilling sound and that pulling as though your mouth is meant to be ripped apart, I never knew his voice over the radio wave was so calming to my nerves. Dont you marvel at the pure coincidence, that he is always there when I need someone around?
I never they cant be compared. But I just just cant help feeling how much it matters. Never mind, at least she would be there there with me for 4hours this weekend when my face swell like a full blown balloon. Forgiven.
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I dont think its true. So is the nick a dig or what? I guess we all have to learn to accept life, if I will have any. We all have to learn to grow up, and be independent. When there is never the destination.
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What if one day I can no longer commit to RBKD or be as useful? I will think about it carefully and when I’m required to, I will make the best choice I could offer. Nope, I’m not leaving yet.
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Is it good for me to be truthful to you? I don’t know.
But I don’t think it is good when I stop being truthful to you; because that means I have given up on you.
I won’t lie to someone who doesn’t matter, simply because they are not worth it.
Similarly, I see no point to reveal the truth deliberately should you be no longer worthy of it.
If being truthful hurts, I wonder if it would hurt more should someone stop being truthful to you?
What do you guys think? I’m pretty random isn’t it?
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What if one day I wake up and forget about everything, including you and you and.. who I am. Ever wondered about this?
What does National Day means to you?
Donning red tops, hanging flags or reciting the pledge?
I’m never a NDP person, my closest involvements remained 1. the compulsory P5-er’s NDP experience, 2. when I was ran on the fields of the pre-parade back in Sec1 days and 3. when I went for the rehearsal which never gave any funpack or fired any fireworks.
Those talks about propaganda and soft deterrence, I shall skip on that. But even if you were never in that hotter-than-hot audience seat during each 9th August like myself, don’t you feel momentarily overwhelmed when the nation comes to a still each time the “Majulah Singapura” is played? The proud faces of people who probably last sang the National Anthem some decades ago?
To wear red and to sing aloud “Majulah Singapura” with thousands of red warriors, it’s a fantastic feeling isn’t it? So no wonder even if I don’t follow soccer, I like to do down to the Kallang National Stadium (as long as its not charging exorbitant fees for exhibition matches) in red to support our Lions especially in ASEAN Cup. Honestly, it feels more NDP than NDP there. After all, you do need to be part of the kallang wave to understand what is a kallang wave :)
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Now, I have stuff to write but no energy to type.
Tomorrow, I will have the energy to type but no stuff to write.
I doubt I will remember what I wanna type, but this is life isn’t it? It takes both hands to clap, but while in your heart you wanna give your loudest clap, sometimes one of your hands has to be “unavailable”.
So you will hear a clap when both my hands are available, and when I remember to clap that is… Haha.
You make a comment because that’s what you feel, that’s what you wanna say. It’s not because you are XXX or YYY or ZZZ that makes you want to have such a comment, although at times, your “identity” might force you to see a need to post a comment when in fact, the “identity-less” you may not feel necessary.
So often, I just wanna post this, I just wanna post that, but most of the time, I will just click “ctrl+A” and then “delete”. Why? Because people will see me as RBKD’s President, because people will see me as a RE’s fan. I am just myself, I don’t always have to represent everyone, every fan of RE’s; I rather take back my words than to make my words yours. Because it’s plain simple, it’s MY words not YOUR words that I’m typing.
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Theoretically speaking, if I wanna be See Me Not, then I should not use that as my nick lest everyone recognises that. Yet it seems to suggest that I’m not “See Me Not” when my nick doesn’t display that.
Noticed the recent nick changing craze in forum? I believe I’m the culprit of it all. Now, am I going to change back my nick any time soon? I honestly have no answer to that. It seems to me that deep down somewhere, changing back to “See Me Not” might imply my determination to “disappear” (from the forum/msn at least), that is to say, to be truly See Me Not. For now I’m not disappearing yet, so we will leave the nick as that and see how it goes.