Should not I/all Singaporeans feel as happy for Singapore’s Birthday as though it is our Birthdays too?
If we could be so happy during her Birthdays, why can’t we be as happy during Singapore’s Birthdays?
I think I will reflect about this and maybe next year this day if I still remember this post, I will manage to make myself really happy :)
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I don’t think I need to explain why NDP makes me feel “Singaporean”, but why does it makes me feel “not-Singaporean” too? That’s because theoretically speaking I have never been involved in any NDPs.
The 3 times I was “involved” was when:
1. The Primary 5 National Education show
2. Being a performer in the pre-parade
3. Catching one of the previews (without fireworks type) 2 years back
So this means that all my life, I have only watched the actual NDP on TV and it makes no difference if I watch it in Singapore or overseas, whether I am Singaporean or not isn’t it?
I have another question, and it would be in the next post :P
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I have remained as See Me Not.
Banners, caps and cushions are your best friends when there’s no way you could hide from the camera.
And I thought Jean and I looked like the sofa at 0:16 of the video, complete with the green cushion.
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Look at them! When the camera came, everyone ran away. I turned back and saw no one near my 3m radius except for the camera crew. There they were, laughing. Tsk tsk. 真够意思hor?
I had no idea where they were actually, because my cap covered my whole face. It’s easier to be #1 in queue than to speak into the mic for Snail.
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This is just how limited my music library is. But it’s okay. Every year I will add 1 album and it will just keep on expanding.
The song just suddenly played in my brain, it is as relevant as you assumed it to be and it is as irrelevant as you take it to be.
For the ones who understand me well enough, you will share my interpretation and for those who don’t, it’s okay. The SMN’s about letting different readers have different interpretations; no wonder someone said that SMN talks in riddles.
我不配 (词:方文山)
这街上太拥挤 太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在背影照进过去
你脸上的情绪 在还原那场雨
这笑容太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿 又斑驳了几句
剩下半空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅 隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你 你却微笑的离我而去
这感觉 已经不对 我努力在挽回
一些些 应该体贴的感觉 我没给
你嘟嘴 许的愿望很卑微 在妥协
是我忽略 你不过要人陪
这感觉 已经不对 我最后才了解
一页页 不忍翻阅的情节 你好累
你默背 为我掉过几次泪 多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪 你的美 我不配
Sounds wrong. Never mind. Haha.
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不是离开，只是想试着逃回原来的世界。但是该做的事我依然会继续办妥，因为这是我的责任。
想单纯地看电视，现阶段的我，放不下，所以几乎是不可能的。
就算不心疼她，不特别注意她，有了私心的我很难客观地分析，单纯地享受了。
我，天生反骨。所以我得跑出来，喘口气，静下心来。我有我的倔强，也有我自己的叛逆；我的叛逆让我很容易写些多半是赌气多过本意的话，我的倔强让我不可能(承认)后悔。他们说这是意气用事；是敏感，是失望，还是在意呢？
我最不想的是对一部我满怀期待了将近11个月的剧集反感，尤其当一切只因自己无谓的赌气与失望。
一个巴掌拍不响，冰冻三尺也绝非一日之寒。
尝试努力与努力尝试是有不同的。当你只是一味尝试努力时，一次两次三次的挫败或许就能让你心灰意冷，让你后悔，让你不再试着将这冰墙融化了。
但当你努力尝试时，失败却总是在意料之内，相对的，冰墙融化的可能性就成为你继续去尝试的推动力。
要尝试，要努力，本来就不容易；更何况是努力地去尝试呢？
我不想因为失望，倔强或任何的原因而有所偏见。我只想好好地，尽可能的享受这部剧，所以我跑出来了。不管我有没有资格，我真的没事。
:)
I found out that I don’t suit comedies when I only laughed once in the last comedy I caught in theaters – Bruce Almighty.
I thought it was pathetic, so there and then, I stopped watching comedies in theaters.
I think I actually laughed more in the recent movie I caught – Inception, than I did for Bruce Almighty.
Now the thing is, Bruce Almighty might have been funnier, but when my brain recognises a movie as a comedy, the threshold for laughing increases unreasonably.
I am one who has unreasonably high expectations and demands when watching movies in theaters. The environment and atmosphere of watching a movie in theaters matters a lot to me. Basically, my level of anticipation and expectations are correlated.
And when the environment isn’t right, the best show won’t be right for me. So was the case for Unriddle’s preview at Settlers. It won’t be right no matter what when you start running on the wrong track.
I would scream for you like I screamed for him, whole 2.5 hours.
And make the tears x2, at least :)
One day I will say/ask this and then smile and nod at the same time :)
The very moment I thought I understood was the very moment I didn’t.
The very moment I thought I could be detached was the very moment I was sucked in.
The very moment I thought it was lovely was the very moment it was getting ugly.
The very moment I thought has arrived was the very moment that will never come.
The very moment I thought will never arrive was the very moment that came at the blink of eye.
This very moment, I thought of nothing, of nothing you thought I would be.
I know yet I don’t, but I know you don’t, or maybe you do? Still, whether you do or not is, n.o.m.b..
I have always felt indignant whenever my GP tutor (as in teacher) generalises us back in JC days. But now I wonder if my indignation was even justified to begin with.
I wouldn’t say I am a concerned youth, and these days, I pretty much regard myself as apathetic too; yet at the same time, I feel that the label “apathetic” on some other youths might actually be a compliment for them. They are not just unconcerned, they are selfish and self-centered.
Perhaps we all are, but has this situation worsened?
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What exactly is that, have you thought of it?
I think, the way to embrace life is to embrace death. If it’s going to happen anyway, leave it till it happens. Concentrate about living than dying, even if it’s your last breath.
Is there something that you have been wanting to do but simply, did not? Nike says it best over here, “Just Do It”, because as what Adidas said, “Impossible is Nothing”.
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How?
I think that’s where all misunderstandings and miscommunication begin. Because your “I” isn’t my “I”, well at least that’s what I feel when others tell me that.
I’m thinking of stopping but the to-do list never did stop. It just adds on and on and it’s like Pringles – “once you pop, you can’t stop”, it’s like a habit. But habits can be changed.
Can’t I just be irresponsible and cold-hearted? Not this second, maybe the next?
So why should I wait? Even if I know how much more I could offer, even if I know how I could make a difference, even if I know this may not be the best time, I also know that I can’t offer forever, and that there’s no best time. So why not now? I’m as scared of my influence as much as I am disappointed with the lack of passion. It’s dim and cold in here, and I feel bad making people walk this path with me. Now that we finally have a break, why not stop here?
If it has to be done eventually, why wait?
“Dear RBKD, I’m not going to wish you dreams or eternity, I’m going to bring you there, lead you there.”
I just wrote a birthday note to RBKD that doesn’t seem a bit at all like a birthday note. I was tempted to write the above line but alas, I didn’t, because I’m not willing to, and I don’t dare to commit to such a promise.
I know what I could do and this is why I could type the line in such confidence. But the confidence in my ability to fulfill the promise is different from the confidence in myself to fulfill the promise.
The difference is in commitment and willingness, that I can’t and will never be ready to promise.
Like how I always ignore you. Hahahahaha.
Sometimes, we just had to let it out. To say something, to ask something. It’s not that we wanna show anyone any attitude or anything, it just that it is unhealthy to keep it within us.
I honestly didn’t expect the active response in the “Don’t say ‘Whatever’” news thread. “Whatever” happens to be one of my pet phrases, yea.. I always annoy lotsa with my “whatever”.
It’s a show of attitude, without a doubt; but is that it? I think I will perhaps watch my tongue, I will only “whatever” to those I can be truthful enough to show my attitude to. Others? If you don’t know how to ignore me, let me do the honor then, ignore you totally. Haha.
My friend commented that I was being too fussy. I admit I am fussy in nature but over that particular issue, I refused to acknowledge that I am (fussy).
So I gave her this example:
A black dot on a piece of white paper versus a black dot on a piece of black paper. The same black dot is of course, more obvious and hence less tolerated on a piece of white paper than the black one. Right? It’s nothing about fussiness, the most about expectations. Isn’t it?
Haha. I was telling Shir some stuff today and she mistook that I was quitting, threatening to faint if I quit. Yea I nearly quit quite a few times over this past year, over various reasons, at one point I was 90% decided, still I am here, to terrify you guys.
So what if one day I suddenly declare that I’m quitting?
Would you rejoice or would you be sad? Or would you simply feel nothing because it’s not your concern? Anyone anything to share with me? Comments box has been quiet lately..
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